Thursday, January 26, 2012

36 weeks!

Monday was my 36 week mark, and a few days earlier, was the offical start of the 1 month countdown! Holy cow. I am going to be a mom in less than a month. I am really starting to get nervous about labor and delivery. I'm terrifed of needing to have a c-section. For some reason, the entire time I've been pregnant, I've had this irrational fear of sharp objects. I don't even like to walk around the house with scissors. I just have these really vivid images of me falling and stabbing myself. I mean, I'm so clumsy lately, that wouldn't be that big of a surprise. So, I make sure everything is pointed away from me, and I am really careful. With that said, you can only imagine how scared and disappointed I would be to need to deliver surgically. It is probably a silly fear to have, but surgery just freaks me out. But, I know that doctors really only give c-sections when the safety of the baby is in jeaporady, so I guess I will just have to suck it up and roll with the punches.

On the other hand, thinking about my lady bits exploding during a regular delivery is equally scary. I'm planning on getting an epidural, but it is mostly the recovery I'm nervous about. All the bleeding, pain, swelling, tearing, discomfort and general gross-ness of the entire process makes me cringe. I'm pretty positive that I won't even look down there for a few weeks. I don't want to scar myself for life. I mean, there are some things you can't un-see. Bobby has also made a stern promise that he won't actually look at what is going on with my nether-regions during birth. He is going to hold my hand, and not my leg. If I can't even stomach the idea of turning inside out, I can only imagine how he feels about seeing that gruesome sight. No one needs to see that.

Other than that, time is SLOWLY chugging by. Only 9 days of work left, and  25 days until my due date. I'm becoming really impatient and anxious, but I think that is mostly my hormones. I'm trying really hard to not be a complete basket case, but as Bobby can testify to, not sure my efforts are going so well. :[

This week, baby Gunner is 18.75 inches long, 5.75 pounds and the size of a crenshaw melon (whatever the heck that is!)

Actually, I asked my doctor how big he thought the baby would be if I delivered at full term, and he said 8 - 81/2 pounds. On average at this point in a pregnancy, babies gain about a 1/2 pound a week, so it looks like my son is about 6 - 6 1/2 pounds. Little chunkers!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

35 Weeks!

Yesterday I hit my 35 week mark. I can't believe how incredibly fast this pregnancy has flown by! On one hand, I am completely ready to be back to my normal self again, and on the other hand, I know I'm going to miss having my little bubbas so close to me 24/7. Its going to be a huge change to not be able to protect him, hold him, and know exactly what he's up to every second of the day. I can't even remember what my body looked like before I got pregnant. Seeing pictures of my (kinda) flat stomach makes me a little sad. I love the way I look, but I don't really like the way I feel. Things have progressively become more and more uncomfortable as time goes by, and I am genuinely curious how I am ever going to make it past the next 5 weeks. Back pain is a daily visitor, heartburn seems to never go away, stretch marks seem to multiply overnight and any remnant of feeling pretty or sexy in any way are long-gone.

But... To say that I'm so excited to finally meet this little person who has been taking over my mind, thoughts, life and house for the past 8 months, is a total understatement. I want him here in my arms already. I can hardly wait. I think because the nursery is completely done and we don't have many lingering projects or items to buy, I am starting to nest in a different way. Last weekend, especially because of the start of the New Year, I got it into my head that the backyard needed to be re-done and beautified. So I waddled my way over to Green Thumb, and with the help of my genius husband, got our drip irrigation system hooked up correctly, and planted some rosemary, lavendar, thyme and peppermint in a once-lonely and empty spot in the backyard. I also started clearing out some of the dead leaves and rocks and spiderwebs leftover from fall and winter from the corners of the yard, and began prepping those areas to plant bulbs and morning glories that I've started in peat pots. Our backyard also had a large patch of dirt ready for a vegetable garden, so I figure once I've done everything else, I can start on that too.

I don't know how much time or energy I'll have for gardening once our little guy is here, but I figure I will be more likely to take him out into the yard and give him a healthy dose of sunshine, if my backyard is pretty. And basically, since we have a drip irrigation system that just needed to be connected in a few spots and needed a few more misters/sprinklers, I don't have to worry about daily care. My plants wont die if I forget to water for a few days. Everything is on a timer, which is really nice. And it has been really nice to work on a project that isn't baby related for once. I think Bobby has enjoyed figuring everything out and helping me along the way. Its really soothing to just be outside in the sunshine, not thinking, talking, or really doing anything except enjoying nature. I want to try and garden more often, it feels so great.

Other than that, we have just been enjoying the nice weather, and counting down the days until our little guy is here, and until we are both off of work! I only have 16 working days left, and if Gunner decides to come on time, Bobby only has 18 days left. Its going to be such a relief to not have to worry about being anywhere else but home, with each other!

This week, our little chunky is 18.25 inches long, 5.25 lbs and the size of a honeydew!

34 days to go!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

34 Weeks & Big Bear!

This past weekend was our annual trip up to Big Bear for our birthdays (ours are 5 days apart), and it was SO NICE to get away from everything.

Our besties came with us, and it was just 2 days of eating, relaxing, exploring and building fires. We really needed it. After the craziness of the holidays, and all the hustle and bustle trying to get things ready for the baby, it is an understatement to say that we have been overwhelmed lately. Eventhough it wasn't snowing, it was still cold enough to have a few bits of snow on the ground, and to really feel like winter.

I was really excited to wear my new maternity pea coat that bobby bought me for my birthday, and I was so glad I had it because it was freezing, especially down by the lake.

And pretty much the entire lake was frozen, so it was really cool to walk out on the little piers and throw rocks to try and break it, which wasn't going to happen since it was about 4 inches thick.

Bobby also found some offroading trails that we explored, which was really nice, because thats where all the snow was hidden. He drove super slow, and avoided all the bumps for me, which was sweet.

Overall, it was a great last vacation before the baby comes. 34 weeks down, 6 more to go!

This week, baby Gunner is 18 inches long, 4.75 pounds and the size of a large cantaloupe!

41 days to go!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

33 weeks

I've been awful about blogging regularly lately. The holidays were completely distracting and wonderful, and I just couldn't pull myself away from the cookies and tamales long enough to fit a few short words in :[

Anyway, on Monday, I hit 33 weeks! Its so insane how fast the time is flying by. I officially only have 5 weeks left of work (WOOOHOOOO!!!) and 7 weeks left until my little bubbas is here! Eventhough we are pretty much completely done with the nursery, and have everything he needs, I am still really nervous. On one hand, I wish he was here already. I want to see his face, hold him, tell him how much I've been draming about him, and kiss him. I'm so anxious to just MEET this little person who has been taking over my entire life more the majority of this year! But on the other hand, thinking about all of the new resonsibilities that come with a baby is kind of overwhelming. Bottles, naps, pumping, baths, diapers, laundry, no sleep, diaper bags, etc etc etccccccc.... It's going to be tough, but I know it is going to be one of the most rewarding jobs I've ever had. I know my house and life is going to be upside down for the first few weeks until I get the hang of it, but I just can't freaking wait. It is so bizarre to think that in a few short weeks, I'm going to be someone's mom. And it's not just "a baby", it's "my baby". WHOA.

This week, Gunner is 17 inches long, 4.25 lbs. and the size of a pineapple!

From now on, I'm going to include a countdown in days... 47 days to go! AH!