Halfway there

So this week marks a pretty special milestone in this baby-baking process... I've made it to 20 weeks and it feels pretty darn great. To know that in 20 short weeks (or less) I am going to have my first child is equally exciting and terrifying. I know that my maternal and problem solving skills are awesome, but as the weeks pass, I am definitely thinking about all of the skills I lack or need to work on. Like flexibility. And patience. And not being foul-mouthed. Plus about 800 other things I can't think of right now.

I know that being a mom is a journey, and you're constantly growing and learning, anf if you don't have everything figured out the minute your kid pops out, its not the end of the world, but I think it would be stupid not to be scared just a little bit. A child is a huge responsibility, one that I am looking forward to, but one that I am taking very seriously. Now that my little guy is moving around a lot more, growing bigger every day and basically taking over my whole life (I love it by the way!), things are sinking in and I am really REALLY hoping I have the sanity, strength and stamina to pull it all off.

Luckily, Bobby has been nothing but supportive, kind and generous throughout this whole process, so it makes the idea of SHAPING THE YOUNG MIND OF AN INNOCENT BABY a little less scary. I know that whatever skills or virtues I'm lacking, he will more than make up for it and vice versa. I'm just trying to turn these anxious feelings and worry into productivity. We have the nursery all planned out, a few supplies bought and a long list of "to-dos" which will be finished in the very near future.

For now, I'm just relazing that I would be completely abnormal and  crazy NOT to be worried and cautious. I'll just make sure to ease my mind with plenty of baths and frozen yogurt, and take my agression out with the sewing machine and the oven :]

P.S. Little man is about 7 inches long today, and weighs 11 ounces. Big 'ol melon baby!

Today's Playlist:
When the Sun Don't Shine - Best Coast
There Is a Light That Never Goes Out - The Smiths
Letter to Elise - The Cure